I just stopped and pondered! Yep a year ago on Aug 13th my oldest daughter got married! We spent eight months planning (Well she did pretty much all of it!) and getting so excited for this wonderful event. It was just that, perfect and such a joyous celebration! We are so proud of her and her husband for budgeting and planning on a great wedding as well as buying a foreclosure and being so financially mature and responsible!
So August was wedding time...
September was school & sports starting...and a vacation...after spending about a year hoping and trying to get pregnant my hubby and I figured we were getting old and going into menopause.
October I got to run a 6K for vocations and I made lots of doctors appointments for vein surgery and infertility/pre menopause appointments! I know...mother of 12 checking on infertility??? When I was getting a sonogram the sonographer asked me why I was there...I explained we had been trying to get pregnant for over a year and the doctor wanted to check on my fertility...well, she said, "You are 6 1/2 weeks pregnant!" We were shocked, excited, and very scared due to lots of spotting, tests, and concerns like low progesterone and a weak heart beat...so we asked everyone to PRAY!
November: We found out four weeks later that our "Baby HOPE" didn't make it...it was a huge crush to us all, especially the kids because mommy has always been good at the baby thing. I had had a miscarriage at 7 weeks 20 years earlier with two little babies who really didn't understand that mommy had a baby anyway...
December: I was still trying to pass the baby and had an abnormal time actually miscarrying.
January: Healing and trying to accept God's will in our lives. Happy to have a house full of babies and grateful to God for giving me a wonderful supportive husband.
February and March: losing the 10lbs I gained from my short pregnancy so back to exercising and eating healthy!
April: lots of birthday parties and we got a surprise call on Holy Week asking if we would take in a foster baby...duh! of course we would! This was a huge surprise since we weren't even on a list to do this type of thing. So we got a precious 2 1/2 month old and we were on cloud nine! Maybe this would be a new ministry for our family-helping mom's out in need! I turn 44!!! (The same age my mom was when they got me as a foster baby!)
May: found out I was pregnant! Yahoo....lots of doctors appointments to confirm that my baby and me were both very healthy! Thanks be to God!
June and July: was totally enjoying being pregnant and loved hearing my babies strong healthy heartbeat...specialist even said I could have V Back and I was switching doctors to go to a MID WIFE who would deliver at the hospital.
July 16th: water broke...in hospital and on bed rest for 2 weeks
July 31st: found out that Steven didn't have a heart beat
Aug 1st: delivered Steven
Aug 3rd: buried Steven
August 13th again...trying to get on with life and be the best child of God, wife, and mother I can be!
THANK You Lord for a year full of joy and sorrow. You are my Savior and best friend and I trust in YOU!
THY WILL BE DONE!!! +JMJ+
Wow, it sounds like so much when you read it all at once! Hope you are healing well. Still praying for you :)
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to tell you that I prayed for you all through your difficult time after your water broke. I lost my first born child in a similar way. Water broke at 22w2d, stayed in the hospital until he was born at 23w6d. He lived for 5 hours. His birthday is tomorrow. He would have been 15 tomorrow. We have also had a difficult year, and are awaiting the birth of our 8th living child. I have at least 7 children waiting for me in heaven some day. I can relate to you so well.
ReplyDeleteI can tell you this. While you will never forget, you will heal and move on. It takes time, but it will happen. Know that I am still praying for you, as I understand what you are going through at this time.
God bless you and your beautiful family.
Wow, it certainly has been a year. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you try to heal.
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